moving...

I am moving my blog to...

http://maebh93.wordpress.com/

Please come and visit me there.

much love!

I'm a loser baby!

So, I watched the season finale of the Biggest Loser and have to admit I teared up. It is soo uplifting to watch these people completely reshape their bodies. I am glad Ali won. She worked so hard, especially considering she was voted off the show only a few weeks into it and still kept at it at home to earn her spot back at the camp. I wish I had the opportunity. I would completely kick butt...

Here are some pics of Ali before and after. She lost 112 pounds in 22 weeks (I think). Her initial weight was 234 pounds.

Ali @ 234 pounds and Ali @ 122 pounds

She looks amazing!

If only....if only.

Dooms Day? Not for me!

I am sooo glad I filed early and electronically.

IRS Timetable for Rebate Payments

Here’s the government’s plan for making the economic stimulus payments for taxpayers whose 2007 returns are filed and processed by April 15:

DIRECT DEPOSIT PAYMENTS
If the last two digits of your Social Security number are:	Your rebate should be sent to your bank account by:
00 - 20	May 2
21 - 75	May 9
76 - 99	May 16
PAPER CHECK
If the last two digits of your Social Security number are:	Your check should be in the mail by:
00 - 09	May 16
10 - 18	May 23
19 - 25	May 30
26 - 38	June 6
39 - 51	June 13
52 - 63	June 20
64 - 75	June 27
76 - 87	July 4
88 - 99	July 11

Courtesy of http://finance.yahoo.com/taxes/article/104827/Make-the-Most-of-Your-Tax-Rebate

I can't stop this feeling...

Gosh, I don't think I could Blog anymore today if I really wanted to. I am starting to read the book the secret (http://www.thesecret.tv/ ). Lex and I are going to compare thoughts and notes about it. I think it will be good for both of us. She also mentioned as a joke that I needed to read a book called Stop Obsessing... my first reaction: obsessing about what? Ahhh, my weight she points out.

See, lex finally just read all of my blogs last night. I obviously need to explain my obsession a little more... a while ago I read a diet book called the carbohydrates addicts diet (don't try to follow it, not a good life style choice) and one of the things the author/doctor/whatever mentioned was the idea of weighing your self everyday b/c then you see what you are averaging. So ever since I read that I have weighed myself almost every day. It becomes a little consuming but thats part of me now. Even if and when I lose the weight I want, I am sure I will still get on that damn scale everyday. Its more of a reminder than anything else. When the needle points to a number too high its like whoa buddy... gotta lay off of whatever I have been eating but when the needle goes lower its like yeah, and what biotches. It has also trained me to know pretty much how much I weigh without even getting on the scale. Its kinda scary I can guess my weight within a 2 pound difference.

Some of you might call it some kind of mild disorder. Call it what you want. I don't really care. Its not like I am making myself puke or starving myself. I couldn't deal with the permanent heartburn or the constant hunger pains. I call this my own monitoring system. I had stopped weighing myself for a while and then one day got back on and was the WTF!?!?! It was seriously the heaviest I had ever been. Since then I got back on the scale daily...

So thats my story and I am sticking to it.

Aftercare...

SUCKS!

Ugh, the only saving grace about aftercare on Mondays is that I pick up my group at 3 instead of 2. We go from the Cafeteria to the Computer Lab (3-3:30), to Recess (3:30 - 4), to Art Class (4 - 4:30), and then back to my room from free time. Its an easy day...it really is. Its just by 3 o' clock I feel exhausted and don't have the patience to get them to sit quietly to listen.

I am starving today. I ate breakfast at like 4:30 this morning and have been famished ever since and I have had snack and lunch. Ugh.

I need to buy some power bar type things to chow on before I go to the gym. I am going to head back to the gym after work today to use some machines. I should still have some energy. Then after that I shall go home and die. After I eat of course. =)

*edit* yeah, I soo am not going to the gym after work. My body is tired. I need to refuel before I start trying to go twice a day.

It's 3AM, I Must be lonely...

Well, 4:30 if you wanted to be technical. I have been up since 4 though. Can't sleep yet again. WTF. I did sleep in a little late yesterday which might contribute to my lack of Zzzz now. This is fine though. I did want to get up and go to the gym this morning. I am ready for it. At least for today. Ugh, Today is Monday. Monday = Aftercare. I am sooo over aftercare. I wouldn't dread Monday's as much if I didn't have aftercare. There is nothing like starting your work week off with a 10 - 11 hour day.

So ~ Since I left my "woe is me" blog on Saturday ~ I guess I should try to remotivate myself. I just had my breakfast ~ a Cranberry Orange Muffin and a small cup of Yoplait Yo (new yogurt for the digestive track ~ pretty yummy!). I am going to try and keep the food log thing my sister found (www.thedailyplate.com). If you haven't looked at it yet, check it out. Its pretty cool. It might contribute to the crap load of spam mail I have been getting though so if you register to it, use a junk email address.

I sat and figured out how much longer until summer vacation:
Only 52 more calendar days
or
8 weeks
or
36 school days
or
6 more Mondays! (We have one Monday off for Memorial Day!)

Thank God!

Starting from my first blog (3/4/08) I have lost -2lbs. Not too bad considering I still feel full from dinner last night (mmmm, meatloaf).

Off to the gym I go. Happy Monday Everyone!

just a thought...

I found this little tidbit today. thought it was rather funny.


"In the first place God made idiots. This was for practice. Then he made school boards."
Mark Twain